shout then you scream :D

2011-05-28T21:02:00.002+08:00

Every morning, i'd say good morning to you. Every night, i'd missed you.

You said, i didnt care.

2011-05-17T00:25:00.002+08:00

Why does so many people understand how sacred marriage is, how blessed it is to wake up beside someone you love so dearly, someone to hug on the sofa at home for a late night movie, someone to say "i love you" to before bedtime.

2011-04-19T01:19:00.001+08:00

If i were to name the greatest disappointment, its you. No, maybe its us.

Pretty faces, Pretty little liars

2011-03-26T01:03:00.002+08:00

PLL is like a reality drama series that gives you fairytales, you start thinking they exist again. Then suddenly, it became a dream.

I wished i could lay down beside you when the day is done and wake up to your face against the morning sun. But you disappear one day.

2011-03-24T13:22:00.002+08:00

Am i so hard to understand? If i wanted that, i would have done it myself.

2011-03-23T01:23:00.001+08:00

Do people leave, because its easier to walk away than to fight for what you really want?

2011-03-19T22:25:00.008+08:00

Swave boarding at ecp

Charlotte ^^

I love this cause its awfully cute

Attempting to speed. But, failed. LOL

And i fell while swave boarding :( but it was kinda fun i must say.

Oh guess what i bought on IT show period. Body shop products. Should have seen the crowd. MADNESS . Im in love wit the cranberry scrub i bought because it smells super yummilicious and very very sweet but id never get sick of the smell.

Under epi center for IT show. I WANT MY PAY. The only thing about event jobs is that, your pay comes so so long after -.-
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I HOPE FUCKING OLD UNCLES WILL STOP TALKING TO ME ON FACEBOOK. Everytime i log on (ps. i only on my fb chat once in a blue moon, usually when im in a good mood), w/o fail 1 in every 2 times i log on, 1 uncle (some balding) will talk to me on fb which is freaking irritating. Ya, i could very possibly just ignore them, but just the pop up msg makes me feel damn.... PEK CEK ? i dont know. its damn irritating cause they are like some desperados trying to prey on some younger girls. About 10 years age gap ??? . Dont mean to be rude, but if they think that they can cheat some xiaomeimei, apparently they are wrong -.- I'm not the one. Some give excuses like " Cannot make friend with some one younger MEHHH" RIGHT, then go make friend with a 15 year old boy la lame.

MY fb is filled with junk. Recently i receive this, which is sick but im not suprised how people will soon exploit ways to take advantage of other people through this increasly popular worldwide virtual platform. Girls, beware. Dont give in to monetary temptations and act in a moment of folly and greed.

2011-03-12T01:33:00.004+08:00

IVE MADE UP MY MIND :D

i think its most important to know what you want, the sooner you find that out, the less regrets you will have. Otherwise, wherever you go, you will never stay long. In the end, you find out, you missed out alot in life, but its too late, its never gna change.

Worked for IT today. Dead tired. And i didnt eat much, cause it was all about hitting more sales:/

2011-03-11T09:08:00.002+08:00

I still cant change the fact that i'm someone with alot of insecurities. After so long. If you need me, show me. Because, i can give you countless suprises. Otherwise, i'd be gone.

Eternal flame

2011-03-07T12:25:00.004+08:00

What ive been busy with. Garnier roadshow.

I get really envious when i see ______. And im really afraid id let that keep me blinded from the truth. It happened, but its not gna happen again. I'm going to be 100% sure the next time.

Eternal flame. Crazy about it ever since caroline sang this on vd.

2011-02-24T10:25:00.002+08:00

Event for Larier @RP. When we went, it was already their last day of papers. How envious.

Someone said "it's when people start to get too comfortable then we stopped cherishing one another." How true.

Okay, off to study for finance paper tomorrow. No more online pokemon games -.-

You dont want it as much as you did and its okay

2011-02-15T16:34:00.007+08:00

Morning w/ my still wet hair.

HR roleplay aerobics preparation.
HEHEHE, im so attempted to post the stupid dance vid. Should i?

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I'm so so so sick now. And it feels like just yesterday when i recovered from my super bad sorethroat. Now, im down with fev again:/ So tempted to skip lectures because my nose were running so badly, but i didnt. Hungry now, and my shitass brother doesnt want to buy food for me. SUCKER:(

2011-02-08T00:01:00.004+08:00

WTF. I GAINED WEIGHTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. LOOK AT MY FREAKING FAT FACE. THATS IT

2011-02-07T01:59:00.001+08:00

I feel like we are two repelling magnets, the moment we get closer, we repel. Its like no matter how hard you try, how hard i try, we will never meet.

2011-02-05T03:48:00.006+08:00

Happy CNY. i didnt wore my dress i ordered because i forgot to alter it and by the time i realise it, the altering shops were either too full, or they were extremely overpriced. Not a good deal, but heckkk look good can already righttttt:D

i pick her dress for her, and secretly influence her to buy this, because i like polka dots. haha, but its cute right. Little girls should always wear polka dots, so suitable. Got lace somemore. SWEET.

Plaited the sides of my hair, but i forgot to take pictures of it from the side.

At the end of the day. Although, i looked all smiley, but trust me, I WAS FREAKING TIRED. i should totally invest in a new camera, because mine is spoiling/already spoilt:/

Oh, and my treat for the day : http://www.juztoday.com/lucky-draw.php?id=4&winner=9

(click on it to find out)

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i paint that wall colourful, and seemingly welcoming. But truth is, the door to that wall is now closed.

2011-02-03T00:49:00.003+08:00

Did my 20 page report till 8 am this morning and rushed to school for submission. i cant believe i submitted late. Omg, and worst part, i felt really sucky, so i cried which was damn embarassing. Luckily i had my sunglasses on, so no one could tell the redness in my eyes. But whatever, that report was important to me, because i didnt get an A for the first one. Dont.really.wna.elaborate.much.on.that.

So, i got really hungry after the submission on my way home, and i went to the macdonalds nearby. i swear it was the first time i had to 30 mins for my order -.- Apparently, it was flooded with so many secondary school students who had early dismissal for cny. I was hungry, so... whatever, amidst all the angsty while waiting cause people kept bumping into me, i got my food.

Got home ate and sleep. Woke up at 6pm. AND I WAS STILL THINKING ABOUT MY REPORT:/ i hope it gets off my mind soon.

Anyway, i was playing around with some hair styling software. and i changed my hair colour to some reddish brown shade. Im thinking of dyeing my hair

i was really bored. You know, rushing for time for so long, and when you suddenly have lesser things to you, you cant get used to it. Well, at least i found another source of entertainment

NOPE. Not changing hair styles. ahahah . i looked ridiculous. Anyway , the white blonde one was stolen from lady gaga. LOL

2011-01-30T01:01:00.000+08:00

Your heart cringes at the thought of it every single time.

When i'm happy, i see angels.

2011-01-27T23:28:00.003+08:00

I feel like eating the Frog leg porridge at Geylang Lorong 9 now too ~

MEHHHHHH, PROJECTS. SUCKERS.

2011-01-22T03:14:00.005+08:00

I'm still as sensitive as ever. Every little sign i catch, is the reason to way i behave or react a certain way. Sometimes i feel vulnerable because of my sensitivity. Every other second, i find myself trying to hide that vulnerability.

There arent many that gets to see that side of me. i'm afraid of that side of me.

2011-01-22T03:04:00.001+08:00

I've officially lost my voice. and i have a presentation on monday:( how great

2011-01-18T02:23:00.000+08:00

I guess some things will remain as secrets forever. Though, it feels silly. But, i know i'd look sillier if i dont keep them.

2011-01-09T23:39:00.002+08:00

Its like the worst day ever. Ate the wrong food. Vomitted like mad. Made me very angsty today. I'm feeling somewhat better. Then i realised, i had a lot of work to do:(

Go me.

Random pictures + random dream

2011-01-08T01:48:00.003+08:00

i was so sad, because my eyes looked so puny small here :(

I realised...... my hair's pretty long already huh...

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It was the first time i had such a dream. It was terrifying. Last night, i woke up in the middle of the night after a horrible nightmare.

I dreamt that i saw a replicate of myself. Not through a mirror but another of ME. I had no idea why i was screaming, crying, i can't explain why or how afraid i was. Its like sometime you have dreams about ghostly encounters but it didnt felt half as scary as this was. I was so horrified, its like as though a saw the weirdest, scariest creature on earth. But, it was ME. WHY.

I remembered i was holding on to this one person's arm. I was hiding behind it. But no matter how that person tried to protect me , it just came for me. But, sadly, i have no idea who that person was.

2011-01-02T02:16:00.001+08:00

What am i thinking. who in the world with the right mind would open the same present twice. No anticipation. No excitment. No suprises.

I lost my watch

2010-12-31T18:42:00.003+08:00

I refuse to believe i've made a wrong judgement. Please give me faith to believe the good i see in you is true. Despite what i've heard, i know, its just because it hidden somewhere. Its not gone.
Maybe different people see different sides of a person. I'm glad god made me see the good in you. Maybe that's why it still hurts.

Please dont think im a pathetic little soul who doesnt have the strength and courage to walk out of what she have fallen into. I know its because im one who doesnt forget easily, even one day, when ive gotten over the past, it still stays there. Always a part of me.

2010-12-27T15:20:00.004+08:00

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That's all im taking with me.

2010-12-26T14:37:00.002+08:00

The very same incident happened right before my eye. That feeling so familiar yet so distant.

2010-12-24T01:49:00.001+08:00

I could'nt have felt more disappointed than this. Really.

What is paiseh

2010-12-23T00:40:00.003+08:00

Bus 67 is officially the smelliest bus. ever. Seriously cannot stand, everytime i wna go to csm must take that stupid bus. and i think is partly due to the furry, cushion seats they still have on 67.

So.... the only thing you can do to distract yourself is....

2010-12-20T14:45:00.002+08:00

Those smiles, undo the moodiest mind.

2010-12-19T01:24:00.001+08:00

Who am i kidding? im sucha foooooool

2010-12-18T23:35:00.003+08:00

The orangy light on the bg make me look super skinny which you all know im obviously not.

Cheryl looking super spastic trying to hide from the cam. lol

2010-12-16T21:32:00.001+08:00

I think im doing a good job. But its killing me. My head really really hurts.

Open house photoshoot @ School

2010-12-16T17:19:00.007+08:00

Had an indoor and outdoor shoot at school today for the open house poster. I cant believe it took 4 hours ... i brought the sunflower along. LOL

Mr Kelvin. Looking sunshine with the puny sunflower on hand. ( if you look closely on my hair, i cheated. lol )

We were on the grass patch outside library at business entrance. Its was super, weird cause people were looking, no, more like staring. Shit i think i look super crappy cause the sun was glaring and i kept tearing:/

LOL. Bought yesterday. Wore it out today. im that kind of girl who does that. i just dont understand why so many girls can shop and allow their beautiful dresses to rot in their wardrobe. WEAR THEM OUTTTT

Check out his flawless skin and red lips on my cam. HAHA. I did his make up and hair. im so proud about it :>

Before the shoot.

Apparently, the room was in a mess. lol.

Shoot 2 was formal.

Im super tired. im gg to sleep now. Goodnight.

2010-12-16T01:56:00.003+08:00

Im going to announce the saddest thing ever. REALLY. REALLY.

Remember how i go ranting about how christmas makes me feel extra lonely ???
Because i didnt want to think about IT, sooooo, i decided, and VOLUNTEERED to work on .......
CHRISTMAS. i know im avoiding certain things but i think this is the best solution.

If i cant feel blessed, at least i can do my little part to make others feel blessed.

(Okay, dont come and scold me on msn:/)

Cutest boots ever

2010-12-16T01:29:00.005+08:00

Aint this cute :D and its like padded with fur from within. Gosh.

I was in a super uptight mood due to exams and stuff. And finally.... when its over.... SHOPPING. Retail therapy works 200%.

Got a super cute boots. im so gna wear it to school. haha.

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If you think that way about me, then i think you really dont know me. Its disappointing. What you see is not what is it. I cant tell you why but if you understand me well enough, theres no need for explaination.

2010-12-14T20:44:00.005+08:00

omg, im so excited now for god knows what reason. Plus im visting all the online shopping site, which makes me even more breathless. Dang, wheres my F21 parcel. Taking forever man. i think i paid a mth ago. Oh wells, but i think the spree-er is trust worthy enough. Shall WAIT, WAIT and WAIT.

Oh i think i did pretty okay for both papers :> Something to keep me :D, well for at least a week before the euphoria dies down. OH YEA ~

And WHY, WHY MUST MY CAM SPOIL AT SUCH JOYOUS MOMENT OF MY LIFE. BOO.

Wanted to post pictures of the 2 uber cute dresses i bought. But guess what its oos on the website. LIKE HOW GOOD AM I. HEHE. ( fingers crossed. Please dont tell me, it was oos when i ordered. cause it rmbed it wasnt )

2010-12-14T02:02:00.000+08:00

i got headache. i got headache. i got headache.i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i got headache. i feel like puking and crying. *

2010-12-12T11:18:00.004+08:00

I only have 2 papers. Logically, i should do well right ? But, why am i not feeling IT this sem :/ so distracted these day.Sheesh..

Our doubts are traitors, and make us lose the good we oft might win, by fearing to attempt.
william Shakespeare

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE dont let ___ happen. Give me a break.

2010-12-11T21:12:00.001+08:00

I'm scared:(

2010-12-10T23:23:00.002+08:00

Vampire diaries ep 11 is the most exciting episode EVERRRRRRRRRR. Tyler and caroline, is so so cute together.

2010-12-10T19:57:00.001+08:00

Go me. Go me. S.T.U.D.Y

i likey this

2010-12-10T00:22:00.001+08:00

There's more

2010-12-09T21:35:00.005+08:00

Its a really chilly day. I was on my way home when i felt this cooling breeze, and it kept coming, so subsequently it felt kinda cold so i put on my jacket. Then i realised it was 12 .... PM WTFFF. The weather is crazy. Oh, but i kinda like it. My pores will become smaller..... maybe. LOL

The christmas songs made me felt extra lonely. All of a sudden, i hate christmas.

2010-12-06T20:06:00.001+08:00

i have really really bad headaches lately. like every second, every minute, i stop thinking or doing something, i have them. oh god.

2010-12-05T22:31:00.003+08:00

I'm using these to do up my birthday event invitation. If youre invited, you'd get to see it. SOON. HAHA. dont ask me why i have so much time to do all this crap amidst the busy project period. Wo bu zhi dao ~

EasyA

2010-12-05T15:32:00.002+08:00

Just caught EasyA. I've always loved shows with happy ending;)

2010-12-02T20:58:00.004+08:00

Where's my pillar of strength and courage to tell me everything will be fine and i will pull through.

When im sad, id listen to that special song that doesnt fail to deliver that little bit of warmth i need.

Stress Peak Period Alert

2010-12-02T19:13:00.006+08:00

I realise theres more i need to learn to be a leader. I should stop carrying too much burden on myself because theres always risks of screwing all of them up.
Theres so much inside me i feel like i need to say, but its just too much mixed emotions for me to elaborate. Maybe time, will fade these feelings, and i pray, that i will soon lead myself of out of what im facing. Having too much worries, too much to think about gives you sleepless nights. But because im sick lately, the meds give me that drowsy effect, so that insomania kinda stopped. (temporary)

2010-11-29T22:15:00.004+08:00

Miserably sick and cold today. Ilterally shivered out of school today. Makes me feel really suck. i could do with a big big hug now:(

But the world doesnt stop spinning just because im sick. i still have so much things to do. Shall that little motivation left in me to complete my HRP report. BY TONIGHT >:

Raining. Inside & outside.

2010-11-25T01:29:00.004+08:00

Got caught in the rain with the girls at school. Then i was alone, stuck in the rain again. I was drenched by the time i got home. Have been sneezing really badly. i cannot get sick cause i still have a flea on saturday. The headache make it alot worse though i napped for a while when i got home.

I really need to do well this semester. i want it so badly, i dont know how im gna do it, but i need to get things done the way they are supposed to be. Its a relief to be able to keep yourself so occupied it wears you out at the end of the day you dont have to think about anything else.

My stomach hurts really bad. And i ate my proper dinner today. It comes and go. But not as bad as the other day.

it will come

2010-11-23T21:46:00.001+08:00

Maybe one fine day, you will find someone you truly love.

New found love

2010-11-22T02:27:00.001+08:00

Guess what, new found love. i can totally skip my meal and just have mr bean. Okay, im going to do it tmr ~

12:30am

2010-11-22T00:30:00.001+08:00

Its 12:30 am & its that period of time, im afraid of most.

21/11/2010

2010-11-21T15:20:00.002+08:00

This morning, i woke up, i looked at the 52 messages. I know the story behind each of these messages.

On 25 Jun you said this" I can't sleep and my head hurts and i keep thinking of you. I just wanna tell you that i miss you even though i last saw you 7 hours earlier. Have a nice sleep. Goodnight sweet dreams and sleep tight"

This was the first "i miss you" text from you.

On 31 July you said this" I am. I'm very very happy to talk to you. I seriously can't ask for more den you wanting to talk to me. I'm really sorry please dun think that way Okay. How can i not be happy to talk to you when i like you so much"

It was when i was touched at how much you did for me and i didnt want you to have a lonely ride home. Then i realise you were walking home.

On 11 Aug you said this" Guess you are asleep. Hmm goodnight sweet dreams sleep tight:D and i just wanna let you know no matter what happened and what you decide after a month, i'll still not give up. I'm already giving my 200% now and i'm not gonna stop just because you might have second thoughts. I'll do my very very best to help you adapt for this one month(: Sleep tight ! "

I was hesitant but you gave me courage.

On 3rd sep, you said this " Baby. I can't sleep. and i miss you a lot. I just need to tell you that i love you. i really do. I can't find the right words to describ (you spelt it w/o an E) how much i love you. Goodnight baby. "

It was the night, everything felt real.

On 8 th oct, you said this " Baby please call me when you see this. I need to hear your voice"

I was at work. My phone was flat. You were injured that day.

On 6 nov, you said this " Miss you(: "

This is the last "i miss you" text from you.

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It really took me alot cause i use to read them.Every.Single.Night. but, i deleted all 52 of them. I had to.

Tell me

2010-11-20T22:07:00.001+08:00

It felt long. Long enough to hurt.

2010-11-20T18:15:00.001+08:00

Like it mattered.

Keep going

2010-11-20T17:19:00.002+08:00

Oh god, i miss my old hair. Grow hair, grow.

TMU

2010-11-20T00:01:00.011+08:00

CC

2010-11-19T01:29:00.006+08:00

I would form shapes with clouds all over again.
But, life moves on. I'd remember the stars that special night, as i embrace the sun again.

Remember when

2010-11-17T16:09:00.003+08:00

Remember when we vowed the vows
and walked the walk
Gave our hearts, made the start, it was hard
We lived and learned, life threw curves
There was joy, there was hurt

We came together, fell apart
And broke each other's hearts

We won't be sad, we'll be glad
For all the life we've had
And we'll remember when

im tired

2010-11-16T23:57:00.004+08:00

Why am i losing so many things, important to me. I lost my phone today. I feel insecure, lost, and for some reason im afraid. I wont usually feel like crying if i lose any material items, but this time its different. There are so many things in my phone i really wna keep.

Dear god, i will thank you if you could aid me in finding my phone back.

I give up

2010-11-15T22:43:00.004+08:00

Because i am really not fine. I SWEAR, PROMISE + DOUBLE CHOP. Because, i feel just like "any other girl" to you. If only tears flow inward.

2010-11-14T20:01:00.001+08:00

别怕我伤心

2010-11-10T00:27:00.000+08:00

你追求的是一种浪漫感觉
还是那不必负责任的热情

I

2010-11-08T21:20:00.002+08:00

I'm going to be independent, because, i've lose faith in everything else but myself. Only I, will not let myself down.

Random

2010-11-08T00:16:00.002+08:00

I miss watching movie with you. I don't know how im going to sleep tonight.

With love,

2010-11-07T14:32:00.005+08:00

My heart hurts. Because i love him. But, i know if things dont work out, we have to leave it to fate.

i guess it will be the long time before i start believing it again. Maybe, its best that im alone. But, honestly, i really really thought S after chasing me for so long will love me for who i am regardless of whether he thinks im the Jialing 6 mths ago or im the Jialing now.It hurts esp when he says " it shows my level of maturity", it hurts when he says " he need to know the reason why he fell in love with me the first place" because, i know exactly the reason why i fell in love with him, till today.

I'm afraid , even if we decide to overlook this problem, im dont know how im going to leave him the next time it arises again.Because, nobody has any idea how much i love him now.

This sucks. but, i hope he'd cope fine. Maybe, its less stressful for him without me by his side. Iguess its back to square 1. Jelly will always be Jelly. Nothing changes. its up toyou to know me.

Hello, im back

2010-11-06T15:14:00.003+08:00

So much have happened these few months..... So much so much.

Ohroses, quiting of sunflower, being in another relationship, school new class.

So, here i am, back again, i figured, i need to rant it off somewhere. Things hasnt been very smooth sailing. Yes, ohroses is still...... coping fine, school is still school, but i feel like i have so much burden over me down, and i just cannot let go. This crazy mental state is killing me.

And, i quarelled with S yesterday. Why ? i dont know. Maybe, its not his fault, maybe, i just need to be hit back to reality, that theres no one there to spoil me anymore. Yes, i am spoilt when it comes to certain things, but i cant help it. And cheryl said, to be in the game, you have to play the game. I'm trying but its so hard, so unlike me, but i have to do it, otherwise, i'd be out of the game soon. Maybe, i need to stop taking some things too seriously. Expectations yield disappointment and misery. I dont want either of that, in me.

I still want to be that everydayisabrandnewdayandimbreathinghappiness girl. I will. I promise.

Resistance

2010-06-27T14:55:00.002+08:00

Sunny day. Rainy day. Sunny day. Rainy day. Rainy day.

Im falling sick.

Procrastination kills & you know it

2010-06-22T22:36:00.007+08:00

I hate procrastination. I use to procrastinate alot. Like really alot. But somehow, one day i decided not to. Not to think that there will always be a tomorrow. Not be self delusional by making my self think that the due date will never come. Not to think that no matter what i do i still can make it by the deadline. But one day, i was getting abit pissed for being sucha procrastinator and nothing proper gets done the desired way.

So, i threw that bug away. For once, i tried, to suppress that urge of doing anything else but the actual work that needs to be done. It worked. And i found that.... i kinda like that sense of satisfaction. Its like everytime you get a load off your shoulder, you feel so much lighter there. Somewhere in your mind.... you have that happy feeling. And afterwhich i kept that momentum going, and i liked it every, single, time.

Its just that one big step, might be a mega huge step for some, but after which youre just gna enjoy the relief of having something off your mind. JUST GET IT OFF MAN. JUST DO IT.

DHL

2010-06-20T00:20:00.004+08:00

Omg, i so can't believe i got into the DHL list. My cgpa wasnt exactly amongst the top like the the 4s, or the 3.9/3.8s, so, kinda suprised. But of course, i wont deny that i was secretly hoping that this white envelope from TP would appear in my letter box.

Another source of motivation after sooo long. So glad. Totally over the moon now. And im not gna pretend to be like " oh.... expected. DHL.... no big deal " cause im so not. HAHA. Cant be more grateful. I remembered Ivan once asked me " EH, do you think you stand a chance for DHL " I said something sooo stupid, " Huh DHL ? The delivery one ? " I know....

Orchard River

2010-06-17T13:46:00.004+08:00

Omg, check this out. This is so freaking me out. While i was totally embraced in the rare cool breeze yesterday............................................. People are swearing it off.

This is ..... way beyond. Tell me this is not Singapore.

Imagine all the branded good....All wet. Poor retailers.

This is soooo weird. Not to add, on GSS season. You know, disasters + foreigners gathered for sale..... as much as we all hate to say, i guess it's gna invite alot more gossips about Singapore's technical ability, drainage system. Could it be the new mall? Ion? Cause i dont remember having floods in town area, i mean bukit timah yes, but orchard ? i dont think so.

Go read the papers ~ HAVE FUN PEOPLE, 2012, could be nearing. HA.

Hollow

2010-06-15T01:28:00.004+08:00

My space is so rotten. Boring. Dont ask me why. Just not in the mood. To blog. God i need to get that back:/ i so sick of the nothing's-new-in-my-life feeling. Damn irritatng. Probably, id get myself a dog soon, or get a new handsome rich boyfriend and flaunt about it, or maybe do some random weird stunt along town, do a Guinness world record eating jellybeans...Whatever. NEED.TO.GET.MY.LIFE.BACK. shit.

It's not like i dont go out and stuff but, its just different. The mood. I need to do something exciting ...... Ideas anyone

& and i was hoping this helps :D

Choice

2010-06-09T14:49:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, the bad things.... they follow you. People give you shit. But's its all up to you how you are going to take all that shit thats coming your way.
These shit may in turn make you grow, make you strong. Like they always say What doesnt kill , only makes you stronger.

Worst bad hair day . Ever.

2010-06-06T23:52:00.004+08:00

Freaking hate bad hair days. ARGH :(

You know, once in a while, ( or sometimes they say before your M period ) you tend to feel really sucky about yourself. Like youre the ugliest person on earth with the fatttest fat, legs, thigh, everything before the mirror. I was so pissed on the mirror. I swore i almost screamed the public toliet. My hair's like in the worst condition ever. AHHHHH. I'm not sure if its because of the new shampoo i'm using . omg, im go not gna used it anymore. So darn irritating. Combed and its gets into some weird shape. Repeated the process for maybe 454548451 times ????

P.i.s.s.e.d

City of lurveee

2010-06-06T00:11:00.005+08:00

Was on the bus. Saw an old lady gave up my seat. And guessed what happened ?? The guy beside me did the exact same thing. Followed by another man. & i thought that was like the sweetest thing before some kind soul saw me standing and gave up his seat for me. Awwwwww. I could illterally melt. Into the seat. How sweet.

I love it when everybody cared about everyone else. Especially on a tired day. How heartwarming. HMMMM(:

AH FK I MISSED THE SCAPE FLEA :(

Stardeee

2010-06-02T03:46:00.003+08:00

Procrastination kills. I cant wait for exams to be over and revive this space. Meanwhile, peeps please mug hard :D

CANT WAIT FOR THE FUN TO START CAUSE I'VE GOT SO MANY THINGS PLANNNNN.

Not good at it. At all.

2010-05-26T23:01:00.004+08:00

I dont know what i'm doing.

Time Of My Life

2010-05-25T10:04:00.004+08:00

Out still 11 on sunday night. Rush project. Didnt sleep a single bit the entire night. Done report in the morning at 8am but still feel that something is not completed. Went to school anyway with 3 heavy encyclopedic redspot books to print out all my stuff. Rehersed, went for class.

Hi, people. Thats my hectic life for the pass 2 weeks i guess . Oh god.

BUT BUT BUT, HAHAHA. I guess in life can be very fair sometimes. I was knockout entirely when i reached home yesterday. So, i went to bed at 8 ? Intended to wake up at 12 again to study for my test. and ya, i overslept till this morning at 7am. Saw a text from sam. LAB.CLASS.CANCELLED HAHA. Then i realised my sociology test was not today. Got the date wrongly. I was sooooooo damnnnnnnn relieved and happy i see flowers blooming everywhere AHAHAHAAH The world is a wonderful place. Still.

Revolution of Poker

2010-05-16T14:46:00.004+08:00

Just happened to watch the dispute between two boys . One from reputable elite school rich boy and one typical poly school boy next door. Watched it from clicknetwork via facebook. You guys can go google it. HAHA, im amazed how a poker game between a group of teens can get such media attention. BUTTTTTTTT, greatest winner of this entire issue : This guy from some events company who used this dispute for his casino themed party in sentosa. SMART MOVEEEEE.

DHLs @ 18chef AHAHHAHA (excluding me)

2010-05-13T22:28:00.009+08:00

18chef . Which also explains the orangy pics.

I realise Ivan has thicker brows now ahhahaa

Laughed my ass out the whole entire night. Freaking funny with ultra lotsa lame stuff to talk about. Man, i dont think i will ever get sick of this group of people^^

Jereld : What's 18chef?

Jane : Ohhhhh, a place where 18 chefs cook togetherrrr.

Jialing : LAUGHS LIKE MAD *

I know my was pretty troubled these days. But thanks guys, im really fine. really, really. Really gald to have a group of genuine and true friends who never fail to make me feel loved and i know that im not alone(:

I guess for me ____ is a way of venting my angsty and emotions. No big deal. I think it's normal. And im good now. Life still rocks, school is still cool, Jialing is still Jelly. Love ya people.

Thks ivan, thks rocky, thks feo, thks yongzu , thks sean, thks jereld.

Quit bugging

2010-05-11T01:55:00.000+08:00

Urgh, it's so irritating. Go away. Bugger.

I love chinese

2010-05-09T23:35:00.006+08:00

I think its damn ridiculous now that they just might reduce the weightage of the MT subject in PSLE. I dont think its a smart choice to do just because more kids are complaining about not being to juggle both languages well. Schools should engage students in both languages and constantly cultivate their passion for MT, not to lower standards. Bilingualism has been one of the most characteristic part of Singapore, so i do not think even a slight inbalance on both languages should be permitted.

This makes me miss the chinese lessons i had in secondary school esp during the period whereby we had no other lessons than chinese before O's. It was hella lot of fun now that i think about it.

Watched the news. Totally suprised at the number of people who turned up at Hong lim park. Thumbs up.

Happy momo day

2010-05-09T18:34:00.003+08:00

Happy mother's day.
I brought carnations and earrings for my mum . Hope she like them. And im gg to sleep before she comes back so i can avoid that awakward situation. I know, im a coward. I've thought of it a million times, to hand her her mother's day prezzie every year, but.... i just cant do it la. It's worst than .... i dont know, alot of things. I know people will go " ITS YOUR MOTHER WHAT PAISEH WHAT SHIT " , but because she's my mum, thats will im so..... shy ? i dont know if thats the word to use towards your own mother. But, i am. Whatever, at least i got her something. My carnations are like the chio-est thing ever. Cause i picked them C:

It's life

2010-05-06T01:22:00.002+08:00

When you get people to work together without any basis of friendship foundation, its tough. But, guess, we all have to learn to cope with that.

Dim Sum

2010-05-02T01:26:00.007+08:00

You see, Eating is a very serious matter.

No doubt. Favourite. I always like things gravy-ish.

I love xiao long bao. HAHA

Can you figure what this . Its some chicken floss w brinjal fried. Rocky didnt like Brinjal/Veg.

Me: Eh eat leh ~ Tryyyyy

Rocky: huhhhh dont want la

Me: TRYYYYYY

Rocky: Reluctantly puts it into her mouth. After 2 second, " hmm actually..... quite nice. " Pops a few more into her mouth

Prawn rolls. I ate. Though i was allergic. Abit haha. NAISEEE

Dim sum @ Kallang road.

Taste:

If, Ding Tai Feng was 5

Location :

Because Kallang road is near GL road. So do expect to see old uncles walking along the streets aimlessly ogling at girls. GIRLS, try not to dress too skimpily. I was dumb i know. But it was damn hot the other day. So, learnt my lesson. You'd see me in windbreaker next time . Kidding but seriously, its so irritating you feel like boxing them in the face and kicking their arse, but again who to blame.... All for the dim sum ... HAHA. You see how far good food can bring us to. But yet its because its situation at places like that, it makes us all feel in the mood i guess. Imagine having dim sum supper in...... Tampinese ? No, i dont think so.

Price: x 100000

Damn cheap i swear, okay but i was exergerating about the ratings

Service:In terms of serving time

In less than 5 mins the first dish was out and the others followed not long after. Very friendly waiteresses.

Must try.

Tug of war

2010-04-30T02:17:00.002+08:00

Every night , when darkness falls, its like a game of tug of war. Reluctant to go to bed. Reluctant to leave the serenity i enjoy every second at night. Its the time when i'm so relaxed, surfing the net and wished time would stop that very moment. And because when i go to bed, i need to tell myself, i need to be ready for whatever that's coming for me tomorrow and its a whole new beginning.

Sweet little thing

2010-04-30T01:49:00.004+08:00

Tell me it's the cutest thing. Had it cause the bird fell from a nest, so my oh so compassionate brother brought it back. ( i know , totally feels like its from the primary school's chinese picture composition , typical ) The bird was damn cute. Everytime we walked passed it , it will start chirping. AHA, and w/o fail we will stop by and play with it for a while. But, its gone now cause it recovered. And im gald it didnt stayed for long cause i know i'd be damn sad one day when it's gone. Pardon me for the poor picture quality. Taken with phone.

Bulletproof

2010-04-28T21:44:00.008+08:00

Konnichiwa. Watashi wa Jelly desu . Watashi wa kaimono ga totemo suki desu.

I think its damn hard to have that pro jap accent lest you can talk with that uber cute+so-hyper-you-can-fly-up-the-sky voice. Okay, exaggerating but I think that is one trick to sound like you know what you are saying. So, i was kinda exhuasting for me cause i am not born or used to talking in that uber sweet voice. And apparently, jap lesson today was a disaster :( Cause i kept laughing with jane. My sansei has a bad impression about me. Thats it:(

Cheryl and i were trying to converse in jap on msn. HAHAAH. i was damn funny . Try pronouncing "temaseku porritekunikku". IRRITATING MAXXX. HAHA.

Discovery of the day

Novelty

2010-04-27T01:18:00.004+08:00

Hi guys. No, im not here to blog about my bird. Not in the mood. Its been a while since school started. I can see the work load piling up and projects coming in. I feel that i need to catch that momentum quickly before im out of the game :( And im still trying desperately to adapt to new my new classmates. I'm still slow when it comes to making myself feel comfortable around people. But , i usually trust my first instinct alot. Usually people i can clinque with on Day one would usually be the people i'm gna stick with like how i am with rocky , feo , kal, and cheryl.

On the other hand, im really trying to balance keep the bonds w the girls close. I dislike having to distant with friends that i feel really understands me . I think the chemistry between two beings is unpredictable and good ones, rare. Esp for me. I'm not a 100% extrovert whereby i feel myself when im with anybody. So, girls, please see when i try to make the effort to keep up you. I know we may no longer be classmates and staying together seems alot harder. And i regretted
for taking every single lunch we had in year 1 for granted. Sorry for the fact that you all had to miss out eating at mensa just because i didnt like it there. Sorry for complaining im damn full after every single meal. Sorry for forgetting to bring my specs once in a while and i have to borrow your notes. Sorry for having oversleep so many times that you all have to give me morning call. ( and im still late ) Sorry for being too cranky sometimes i dont know if it annoys anyone of you :(

It amazes me how i can be totally myself when im w you girls. Love you bitches. haha. & for the people i've distant, im really sorry, i know time is an excuse but its a significant factor. That makes me even more firm and certain about grabbing hold of the each and every friend i treasure now. I dont need MANY friends and neither do i care. Seriously, i just need that few that knows me, and we feel comfortable around each other. Thats all. But, im gald that i've met really nice people. I think god has been really nice to me. Friends are kisses blown to us by angels. ( i bet some of my friends are gna be cocky once they read this and go " Jialing thinks im angelic ~ inserts cocky ttm face )

Haha, whatever. Goodnight peeps.

Stay tuned

2010-04-25T01:26:00.003+08:00

Hi, all. I'm gna blog about my bird. Soon. HAHA. stay tuned.
Do not email me anymore about the accounting books. Sold. Do not add me on msn.

Additional books for sale : CSA ( computer system application ) @ $15.

Sociology is loveeee

2010-04-22T21:14:00.003+08:00

Selling
1) Business Statistics textbook used by most local polytechnics. ( Statistical techniques in Business & economics . by Douglas A, William G, Samuel A ) @ $15
~~2)Accounting .An introductory Framework . Pearson custom publishing. @ $15. * Note, only for tp students.~~

Both at very good condition.(: Can be bought seperately .Email : shouts-and-screams@hotmail.com

Hectic mornings

2010-04-21T17:46:00.004+08:00

Hair. Check. Top . Check. Bottom . Check. Pencil case . Check. Specs . Check. Shoes. OH NO, i cant findddddddd my shoesss. & the same drama goes on many mornings when i have lectures early in the morning.

But, okay , today morning was fine. It's like my first official day in school attending tutorial and lectures. I . Really. Love. The. People. My. Jap. Class. i dont know why, but haha , everyone seem so unique and they each have something to offer. Haha, but i was awfully late like 30 mins. i was late and i couldnt find the class. So, that explain's it. But i think my Jap teacher is uber cute. She goes like " Hai " or blah blah blah shitte " Never fails to end each and every of her sentence very japanese-ly. I think all japanese girls have that demure , gentle and oh-so-sweet look , you will never get sick looking at them. & I can totally understand why guys fantasies usually involve jap girls.

Damn, i forgot to take pictures with my girls during break .

Day one

2010-04-20T00:30:00.003+08:00

How's day one everybodyaeeeee . Chicken chop at biz park still taste as good (:
Suddenly, i feel like i regretted not wearing braces and retainers when i was young. I seriously envy people with like the perfect shape teeth and jawline. Damn it.

Lucky or what

2010-04-18T23:31:00.003+08:00

Hi people. School's starting tomorrow for some of us. I guess because of the change of classes, we're all feeling the butterflies. New classmates. AND ,HAHA, I WAS BEING VERY SENTITIVE. ( and lame maybe) because i change the shade of my nails because i thought red nails would look really bitchy on the first day of school . And like they might think that im some uber vain pot whos bimbotic, and stupid , and nothing else. hhahaha , i dont know. I wna look friendly and approachable on the first day. So, Red Nails? i dont think so.

For business school usually on the first week theres no tutorials to attend so it'd be like only lectures. Tmr, its 6-7 French. But, i'm hoping that i could change my cds to Sosiology. Dont think i can handle 2 languages, Jap & French together. Fingers crossed and if my appeal is successful i dont have to go for my French class. Wooo ~ meaning, no school tomorrow. HAHAHA

i'm sucha slacker i cant stand it. Although i feel damn guilty like all my friends are complaining, but WHATEVER. YAY

Brand new start ?

2010-04-16T01:35:00.004+08:00

Got the timetable today. Finally. Got like only one hour lecture on friday. So if i skipped it, it means i dont have school on Friday. Woooo, can life can any better than thisssssss. But, i didnt know im gna have 2 cds this sem. I'm taking French and Jap , which means 2 languages. I think this is no joke. it's gna be damn tough i feel. So, im gna change one of them to sociology and ZH promise to pass me his book (:

Anyway, what scares me about a whole new term are not, whole new subjects , new teachers but , new people that i may have never met. i hate to be put in a situation whereby i feel that i HAVE to make friends. I prefer things occurring naturally but not gg through the whole awkward process of having lessons after lessons of self-introduction. Give me a break . Seriously. and i will no doubt miss rocky and other girls, but we'd still gna have lunch tgt right:( i got a feeling i'm gna be a loner on the first day. Lets compare timetable. ^^

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Hopeful

2010-04-14T15:04:00.003+08:00

It's been sometime ever since i felt that i want something so bad. So bad.

Have to look on the brighter side

2010-04-12T00:17:00.003+08:00

I'm lonely. I'm tired. I'm sad. I'm happy. I'm insane. I'm clumsy. I'm pissed. Today, i'm a million different things. I feel that i should go easy on myself sometimes. Nothing is too big a deal right ? Who cares if the sky is fall. Who cares if theres no tomorrow. ~~Who cares if my nails becomes black eventually due to over dosage of nail polish.~~ I dont want to get stressed up over the tiniest things and it really gets me.

"I discovered I always have choices
and sometimes it's only a choice of attitude."
Judith M. Knowlton

Who.wants.to.go.for.a.body.massage. HEHE

FYL

2010-04-10T00:25:00.002+08:00

I'm really annoyed. But, i should just pretend not knowing any of these things. I'd just keep telling myself. I am aiming for _____. Thats all so, FYL.